Thursday, March 25, 2010
The beginning
So, tomorrow it will be a week since they did a biopsy in my lungs to find out what the heck are those nodules in my left lung. This is after several CTscans and even a PET scan. Everything came out negative until now. Last Thursday 3/18/2010 was the day that my life (I know) changed forever. And to think that everything started with the swine flu back in October! We are still waiting for more information in what stage the cancer is and where did this cancer started at. The word cancer is scary enough and now the waiting is killing me!!! I just want to know...
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I feel that my job is already counting me out!!!
ReplyDeleteWTF... That job is my life and now I feel they are already trying to fix everything like I will not be there again!!! Well.. I got news for you!!! I am not giving up and I will be there on Monday! I think this is the worst thing that someone can do in a time like this. I know the show must go on, but... give me a break.. I am not dying yet!!!! I have a lot more homeless people to help!!!! PUTUKU !!!
Oncologist called.. appointment next tuesday at 3pm... not sure if I can wait that long. This waiting is driving me crazy....
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ReplyDelete"In order to be a realist you must belive in miracles."
ReplyDelete-message inside the label of a bottle of Honest Tea.
Quiero decirte tantas cosas,,,q. no puedo decir nada, espero q. de verdad me conozcas tanto como hemos creido durante estos 24 años asi se q. sabes lo q. siento de toda esta situación y q. sabes q. Sé hasta lo q. NO le digas a nadie. Te quiero muchísimo.Me alegra q. no tuvimos q. esparar a éste momento para decirnos q. somos hermanas, no importa cuál fue la mamá de quien o el papá. Somos hermanas. Estoy contigo... no matter what.
Todo va a estar bien.
For some odd reason I have been in pain for the last 2 days. Otherwise, just hanging in there. Waiting for Tuesday so I can speack with the doctor and move on to the next step. Also very bored... I am going to work on Monday and part of Tuesday. I feel I need to go back for my own sanity. But I feel so depressed today... I have been crying all day, I feel I am drowning, and I haven't started this long process yet... Today I have asked a million times... Why me?
ReplyDeleteEs normal q. pases por diferentes etapas tristeza, confucion dolor, enojo mucho enojo, miedo,GANAS DE LLORAR, fuerza ,,,,,pienso q. de todo unos dia ste vas a levantar muy fuerte y creyendo q. te comeras el mundo y otros habra q. ayudarte pero mira yo creo en esto.......
ReplyDelete"WHEN LIFE KNOCKS YOU DOWN TO YOUR KNEES,, JUST REMEMBER THAT YOU ARE IN PERFECT POSITION TO PRAY"
TAN TAN TE QUIERO .
I just put on a bra for the first time in 10 days!!!! WOW .. that was an acomplishment... Feel much better today..I wasnt to go shopping now!!! My tits are not hanging anymore and I dont have to cover my chest with a blanket!!!
ReplyDeleteWhy is it that shopping always makes women feel better???
Ja ja solo a ti se te ocurre hablar así.Espero q. te vaya bien en el trabajo mañana, q. nadie te joda la vida.TQM
ReplyDeleteTiti ur tits ? Did the Boys log on to ur blog.. When ever u feel depressed j can alwAys call me!
ReplyDeleteKarina
Lisa,
ReplyDeleteYou ARE a GREAT Person. And you do have the strenghth to battle this!! I know because you put up with me & NECAC at the same time. Don't let this scary time get you down, everyday each of us has here is a gift and treat it that way..I will be praying for you..now is the time for those drinks!!!!
Lee Ann
Lisa, you are such an inspiration to Dan and me. Your committment to Free Cakes for Kids is awe-inspiring. Please let me know if I can do anything at all for you, I have a pretty big shoulder to cry on if needed.
ReplyDeleteHey, wow, I'm crying right now so forgive me if what I write is stupid. I'm sorry you are having to go through this, but I KNOW tomorrow is going to be okay. You and I have known each other a long long time and you are the strongest person around. Wish I were closer, we'd go on a shopping spree deluxe! Remember that Christmas...all the scented hot bag thingys? I love you girl. Call me anytime day or night and I'll be here to make you laugh with stupid MEPS stories.
ReplyDeleteToday I went to work.. I felt alive!!! I felt I was doing something.. however, I am paying for it now... my whole body hurts.. but I am ok.. Tomorrow is the big day.. tomorrow I will know what type of treatment I will receive for this cancer. I know I am a fighter but I also want to be realistic. I dont want the sugar coating.. I want facts.. I want reality.. and I want the best medical treatment I can get. Hopefully I can get this here, while I live my life... while I work, got to school, bake cakes for little kids, enjoy my family and friends...and live.
ReplyDeleteLisa
ReplyDeleteI am sorry to hear the news. I just cannnot believe this! I may not be able to do anything else for you but I will do this, I'll definitely pray as hard and as constantly as I can. My prayers will or will not be answered but I know that I know that HIS strenght will see you through this difficult time. I now envision you at 13 sitting in front of me and I brushing your hair and putting on make-up on you. Even when life has separated us, I continue to be close to you. My love and prayers for you,
Virginia
Ok solo quedan unas horas para saber. Espero en Dios q. ese cáncer este empezando asi lo podamos terminar pronto. Fuera cáncer. Te quiero un montón. ¿como te fue en el trabajo?
ReplyDeleteMom, you are the strongest person I know, and I've always said two things:
ReplyDelete1. That I do NOT function properly without you.
2. If i'm even HALF the person you are, I will consider myself lucky.
Wrote this about you:
Bonding Rituals
Sharing hushed whispers
On the scarred dinner table.
Uncontrollable
Laughter explodes from our covered
Mouths. She wears the sweater that
I hate. I am home.
♥ you with everything I have.
TQM
MROD
Sis todo va a star bien ... todavia nos falta mucho camino por recorrer .. fuera dolor y a bregar con la situacion yo se ke tu puedes ..t kiero mucho!
ReplyDeleteLisa, no quiero escribir mucho aqui porque preferiria hablar contigo one-on-one despues de tu visita de hoy al medico. Mientras tanto posteare por separado algo que lei que podria ayudar a los demas, recordando que para muchos puede ser igualmente dificil el hablar contigo de esto. Hasta entonces, sabes que todos vamos a ti!
ReplyDeleteBendiciones miles y sabes que te llevo en mis oraciones.
Love,
Jerry
We all want to be there for Lisa. For many, as myself, we'll find ourselves at times lost for words, wondering what should or not say? While we all take this journey of discovery to be better friends and family (Lisa is my beloved niece) here are a few thinks to think about and put into practice:
ReplyDelete. Educate yourself. Before emailing or speaking, learn what you can about the nature of the illness, and specifically about the patient's individual circumstances.
. Choose genuine concern over sympathy. They need to know that you support and care for them, not that you feel sorry for them.
. Be sincere, but tactful. Cancer may be terminal, manageable, or curable. In any case, you should be careful not to approach the patient as if you consider them to be terminally ill.
. Do not give medical advice; the doctors already take care of that.
. Most importantly, remember that there is life both during and after cancer. Cancer patients do not always want to think or talk about the illness.
. Read your email before sending it. Put yourself in the other person's place and make sure that your email is something you would not mind receiving.
Hi Lisa,
ReplyDeleteI want you to know, Im taking this journey with you. If you feel lost or confused allow me to help you stay on track. Stay mentally positive in those challenging of times and always remember that the strength within you will help you persevere through the tough times. Have faith and believe in yourself. You will never walk alone for your friends and your family will be there to help guide you along the way. God never gives us anything he thinks we cant handle.
Your Cousin,
Tracy La Fontaine
Today was my appointment with the oncologist. Unfortunately, the news are not good. The cancerous tumors in my lung are in stage IV. The doctors are not able to explain why or how is it that I have this. The prognostic is not good. I asked the doctor to be straight forward with us and I am grateful for her honesty. I will start chemotheraphy pretty soon but will continue with my life as it is until I can't do it anymore. The doctor gave me a year to live... maybe more. I will go on vacation with my family at the end of April and will enjoy my life with my family and friends as much as I can. Will keep you all posted and let's pray for a miracle!
ReplyDeleteTiti I am sorry you have to go thru this ... we are all sadden by the news i love you so much and im here to support you in everyway possible... i promise you will never see my tears just smiles to show you how strong i am and for you to show me how strong you are! i know you will get thru this all and i promise ill be right there with u i love you so much and i ll pray every day, night, breakfast, lunch, dinner, and bed time... every second of the dayy if its possible for you to get better ily lady!!!
ReplyDeleteKarina
Lisa,
ReplyDeleteI have never met you but hear all great things from Monica. I can tell you are a strong person and will overcome this. Stay positive and remember miracles happen every day!
Barb =]
Nunka en la vida me imagine ke esto fuera a pasar .. siempre ke alguien allegado me daba una noticia asi pues duele pero no cuando lo vives en carne propia .. yo se lo ke se siente ahora ke mi propia sangre esta pasando x esta situacion y creeme ke es como si me estuviera pasando a mi misma .. pero desde hoy t prometo luchar contigo este cancer.. sto no es mas poderoso ke nosotras .. como cuando eramos chikitas "si tu peleas yo peleo" .. pues ahora.. si tu caes, yo caigo tambien y no creo ke tu vayas a kerrer verme caer, asi ke tenemos ke star juntas y peliar contra esto .. como mi hermana mayor ke eres yo se ke si alguien puede salir de esto victoriosamente eres tu ! .. t prometo ke todo este mal tiempo pasara. a lo mejor no mañana ,porke esto es un proceso largo y con muchas piedritas , pero poko a poko y al pasito y junto a todas las personas ke t amamos lo vamos a lograr .. todavia nos faltan muchas cosas por hacer juntas y todavia tenemos ke compartir juntas cuando seas abuela , como compartistes tu esa experiencia y ese momento cuando me toco a mi.. fuerza y voluntad y pa lante sis !! T amo !!
ReplyDeleteLucy
What can I say or do to help you and your family? I hope it help in knowing that this whole situation really pisses me off. Here's the deal, the game ain't even close to be over until the fat lady sings and everyone knows I can't sing - so I think you are safe for a while. Some people dream of going to Paris France - you got a trip to Paris Texas. Not quite what you wanted, but an adventure none the less. Focus on what you love. Do what makes you feel good about you and your family. You will be surprised how much it helps get through these tough times. My sister-in-law just finished chemo and radiation for breast cancer and is a little less hairy, but feeling great and enjoying her 2 new twin grandsons. Her prognosis is good. DO NOT FOCUS ON THE TIME STAMP THE DOCTOR GAVE YOU. The bottom line is that they just don't know. Be the person who throws the statistics off. I will keep checking your blog. In the meantime, let's keep baking cakes!
ReplyDeleteMarge O'Connell
Hey Lisa,
ReplyDeleteJust thinking of you and hoping you're having a good day! I think you get back from the second opinion today. Let me know what I can do, if anything, for you this week. We're not camping this weekend! ha, ha, ha, ha!
Cakes & Icing,
Michelle Galik
Lisa - You must know all of our prayers are with you. Paraphrasing Jesus Christ, "deal with the issues one day at a time and hand the rest over to God to help you with." If there is anything we can do for you let us know.
ReplyDeleteRosa & Randy Thomas