I had my 4th chemo this morning. I know I will be feeling bad starting tomorrow, so I decided to write today. Went to the doctor also this morning before chemo and she was very informative, so we asked lots of questions. I have another pet scan on July 19 and then we start with the maintanance part of this cancer thing. the doctor informed me that what I have is terminal cancer. That was shocking!!! I had checked online and kind of knew this in the back of my mind but when you hear this from a doctor it just shocks the crap out of you!!! Then you come home and you ask yourself all the questions.. Why me??? Is this a punishment???
To have terminal lung cancer means that the cancer will not go into long-term remission - remission is when the cancer "goes to sleep." It will continue to grow and reside within the host's body until it eventually takes their life. There are things that can be done to extend my life, but unfortunately, terminal cancer of any kind means that it will end in death.
According to the Centers for Disease Control, more people die from lung cancer each year than any other cancer including breast cancer, prostate cancer and colon cancer combined!!! the problem with lung cancer is that the majority of the people diagnosed with this do not know they have lung cancer until is too late or by chance.
Myself for example, I have never smoked in my life!!! Besides being a little overweight (...ok... a lot!!!) I was healthy compared to other people and much younger than others. I had the swine flu in October 2009 and drove myself to the emergency room where they did an X-ray of the chest. This is when my regular doctor noticed there was something there that should not be there. So, I am thankful for the swine flu, because at least I know there is something wrong with me... Other people wont know until is too late.
But then, I ask myself... did I want to really know I had cancer??? Would it have been better if I did not know and waited until it was too late??? Damn questions keep on coming to my head!!!!
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