Where is the family????

After a week or so of chemo, I am back to myself. This time was not as hard as the last time. I have another PET scan to do on 7/19/2010 and the next chemo is scheduled for 7/29/2010. From now on it is maintanance for the rest of the time until I am gone from this world, or until my body can't take it anymore, or until I dont want to do it anymore. Sometimes I wonder if I should even keep on doing this chemo thing. If I have a year or two to live like the doctors say, why waist it being so miserable all the time??? From the month I only get a week or a week and a half of enjoying life. The rest of the time, I am either in chemo or recoperating from the chemo!
I also want to thank my amazing co workers, friends and neighbors for all they have done while I am undergoing chemo. They have paid my bills, gave me cash, gas cards, groceries, cooked dinner for my entire family and much more. And I am still wondering where my family is?????
Let's take my dad for example: I was in intensive care for almost 4 days back in March when they found out I had cancer, he did not visit the hospital. The excuse was that " you know he hates hospitals". WTF !!!! I hate them too!!!! And still there I was! After that and had a meeting at my house to explain to all the family what was going on and what was going to be happening to me and he came to that. After that my brother had a graduation party for my niece and I saw him there. I have not seen him since. I know I am not his favorite, but come on, give me a break! These are the times I want to scream: WTF.. WTF...WTF...
But people say it all the time, who needs family when you have such great friends!